Sick and tired of being sick and tierd! Week 4

Well everyone, again my week didn't turn out as planned. I dint do great and then I got a sinus infection. That was a problem for me cause it made me Wanna eat more cause it seemed to help somehow. In the end it made me gain 2 lbs:(. So tomorrow is a new day and I am NOT giving up!

Goals this week:)
1. Plan out my meals
2. Loose 3lbs
3. Get better. Ok that needs to be number 1:)
4. Get exercising again!

Week 3

Maintaining isn't something I wanted to do but I did. At first I thought I gained 3lbs back! Thankfully I did not! I just weighed at the wrong time. Last week was a little rough and I got a little off track. I am glad I didn't really gain. This week back to business!

This weeks goals:

1. go back to having my shakes regularly!
2. Work on not eating socially!
3. loose 3lbs!

Week 2

This week was a bit crazy. It started off with me getting either food poisoning or the flu. A great but very un-fun cleanse. My blood pressure even dropped and I blacked out, fell off the toilet and into some of Bryant's dirty clothes:( Good thing Jason was there to help me and I only got a little bump on the head:)
So as for working out I was very weak but I did clean a lot and so I counted that cause I worked up quite a sweat and I was up and down my 3 flights of stairs a TON!
I am happy to report that I am down 3 more pounds!!! I now weigh 222 lbs! As for my eating I did over eat on 2 nights. Not proud moments but oh well. I first ate a foot long from Subway so at least that was only 640 calories but then Jason brought me my favorite sandwich from Spankys! It was a 6 inch. I was gonna save it for a little later but then I chowed that down! The second was at last nights BBQ. I wasn't as bad as I could have been:) Anyway I did it and I am not proud but I still watched what I did the next day and all was alright! I know it's ok to splurge once in a while so I wasn't too down with myself:)

My Goals for this next week:

1. Loose 2 lbs
2. Get real exercise in at least 3 times
3. Continue to try and not get overly stressed in general

How am I doing this?

Ok so here is the breakdown for how I am loosing weight. First I went online and googled for my age/height how much should I weigh? (Or you can do one of my favorite things and go to the GNC in the mall and get yourself weighed on their scale) Second I found out how many calories I need to eat each day to loose weight! I used to be on Weight Watchers and we did the point system. I needed a break from that since I wanna start fresh. So I am going back to basics and counting my Calories and Fat. Everyone has a pc these days and there are many tools out there to help with weight loss! I have decided on Spark people for now. They even have and App for the iPhone if you have one! I am using that app on my iPad to track what I eat/drink etc. It is quite handy of those spark people I tell you! You type in what you are eating and it will pull it up from their system or you can manually put it in! So far I have only had to add 2 things I think! I find that I like to horde my calories and I still eat more at night. I hope to fix that soon. I feel it is due to my emotions. Here is the link for anyone who is interested in Spark People!

To be honest I was trying to loose weight before but I couldn't due to the anti-depressants I went on after having my third child. I have since weened myself off and have now started fresh and have had a loss! The whole ordeal was very depressing and upsetting! One of the best things I have learned recently is that it is ok to, "mess up" and have a bad day. I used to think my whole week was a wash! But that's just not true! If you do have a bad day you have the chance to start over the very next day!
Just last week this happened and I still lost the 5lbs. Jason brought home KFC and I literally couldn't control myself! I pigged out! I found that the next day I had a clean slate and I tried to do even better!

My "PLAN"

Ok so today is the first day of my second week. I thought I would share what I have been doing so far.
My "Plan" is for the first few weeks to try and shrink my stomach a bit. Since I can really put the food away I figure this is a good place to start:) So I am trying the Slim-fast shakes for my first meal and sometime as a snack. In the past this has never really worked for me cause I found that I was doing it all wrong and starving myself:)

The next thing I LOVE are the Boca soy patties! I use the 100cal whole wheat buns and I add lettuce, tomatoes and any other fixin I want/have in the fridge. I use the fat free mayo cause I needed it and it is less calories!

So I'll have that or a smartone for dinner or lunch. Surprisingly enough last week wasn't too bad.
I know that prepackaged food isn't the best but while I am trying to jump start this weight loss and change my whole lifestyle I feel this is the best way to start! I am also only setting my goal for 2lbs a week as that is what is considered safe. Since I am extremely overweight I know I will be loosing more then that since I have so much to loose and at first more always comes off.

Week 1!

This past week has had its ups and downs emotionally. I LOVE food! I can pretty much eat anything. While that can be a bad thing I am trying so hard to make it a good thing! For instance I have no problem eating Slim Fast shakes or Boca soy patty burgers cause I think they taste good:) For me weight loss is going to be about portion control, stress triggers and exercise. Now that the snow has melted once again I am really trying to get out and be more active. Last week I was able to go on two walks! It really wore me out and I hardly went far or fast! I am really starting to see just how much weight I have put on my small frame. My joints hurt along with my muscles. Another way my body is yelling at me to, "Stop the madness!" I just need to keep up the good work:) So, for my first week I am very proud of myself. I had a loss of 5lbs!

Goals for next week:

1. 2lbs loss
2. Exercise 3 times
3. Try and stay relaxed and DON'T get too stressed
(when I get stressed or mad I wanna EAT!!!)

Get in Shape Girl!!!

Well a week and a half ago was a very low point for me. I went to my doctor's office and discovered that I now weigh a whopping 230 lbs!!! I couldn't believe it! I am HUGE! When I look at myself in the mirror I just don't see it! Course I don't have a full length mirror either:) Well I thought to myself, "It is time to do something about this!" I thought I would make weekly posts on FB so I could work on being accountable to people to help keep me on track and stay motivated. Alas I knew that wouldn't be enough. I wanted to keep a journal so I could write my feelings and thoughts down. Well then the blog came to me. It is the perfect way to keep motivated and to keep track of everything! Plus I can share my experience with everyone who may be feeling the same way as I do.

Back story: Ok I was always a healthy and very active kid! I never had to worry about anything I ate. I did gain weight when I hit puberty cause I was blessed with huge boobs and a JLo butt(or so I was told:) Not really a blessing though because I became more sedentary and self conscious about my body. Thankfully by big brother Christian made me join the cross-country team in 9th grade. I was so glad cause it helped me get over my self consciousness plus I got in great shape! I guess when you are running 7 miles a day you don't have to worry about what you put into your mouth:) Although I was in shape I still think I weighed around 135 in high school. Then I moved to St. George, Utah and went to college. I then got to 150-160lbs. I worked out at Golds and would use diet pills etc. Next I moved to northern Utah and went to Weber State and continued to gain weight. I rarely did anything active and so it makes perfect sense. Eating crap at all hours and sitting on my booty is a recipe for disaster. By the time I got married I was up to 190lbs:( So 3 children and 3 c-sections later I am now 5ft tall I weigh 230lbs and things are REALLY not looking very pretty!

So here goes! I am going to loose weight! my first goal will be 180lbs then 150lbs from there I will evaluate what I need to do next. I already feel that I will be needing plastic surgery to repair my tummy and I personally want to have something done with my breasts. Wish me luck! I hope everyone will feel free to comment and help encourage me and share their experiences and tips for weight loss!
Here are some photos of me at some different weights in my life so far. Enjoy!